Several years ago the discomfort and anxiety I often felt magnified. I knew it was time for me to get serious about finding my purpose so my purpose could find me. And I knew I needed to learn how to align with the life meant for me and own my happiness. This single choice of declaring that "I'm in for real this time," activated this life-altering, life affirming and life aligning journey.
I'd been on a spiritual path for nearly two decades, strengthening my faith and intuition. However, a few years ago, all the go-to supports I was using like journaling, an occasional meditation or reading spiritual books were no longer sufficient in helping me lead a life with more sustained, lasting inner peace. What I was craving most was to move through life with a sense of peace, happiness, fulfillment and joy no matter what the circumstances.
Instead, I'd have a challenging experience, work through it and find a way out. It felt like I was playing whack-a-mole by changing the situation without ever healing the root cause of the issue - my heart and mind. And then our son was diagnosed with special needs. Believe you me, I tried to "fix" this too. But, I couldn't and still can't control this journey or the outcome of this experience.
What did all this challenge, contrast and discomfort lead to? A deep yearning for my soul to be the driver in my life, to understand and fulfill its calling, to discern the still soft voice of my soul from my fearful ego or personality, to fully surrender to what God, Life, the Universe wants to express through me, and to trust and move through life with a deep sense of intuition and guidance, knowing I'm fully loved and supported in life in every scenario.
Essentially, this all led to an awakening process. I thought I was here to show our son the way out of his physical developmental delays. Instead, he was here to show me the way out of my own spiritual developmental delays...to live a life based on more love and joy rather than fear.
How? One step at a time. First, I began researching how to help James recover physically. I learned so many myths about nutrition and healing - key principles to follow, new methods like energy healing and essential oils. I was introduced to a world of possibility. And, I experienced my own physical healing from hypothyroid. Second, I began a daily spiritual practice as a student of A Course In Miracles to deepen the existing connection to Spirit that we all have. I learned an energy healing method called Innerwise, and continue to grow in my abilities. With this, I experienced my own spiritual healing and development.
The journey has been quite challenging at times, almost like a scavenger hunt in the dark. The moth would often appear to remind me that all I needed was a flicker of light to stay on this path. And so I did. And the light continues to grow, showing me the depth of love within me. Within you. Within all of us.
What I've come to trust is that happiness is truly an inside job. And, I’m about doing the inner work that leads to the joy that already exists within...and showing you the goodness you’re made of too.